#{ i like. writing abt how baby yasuo become this asshole. even tho its kinda fbshfhHFHH hurts my own feelings }

[ionianwanderer]

I wanna talk about how Yasuo process emotions both as a child and how that has translated to him as an adult. In youth, processing "bigger" emotions was something that he never quite had a chance to form a healthy relationship with. Within the circumstances of his birth and their small village immediately turning on his very existence for something out of his control (being illegitamate), it forced him at a young age to build up a barrier.

If other Navori children would parrot what their parents said to them about him or his mother, its obviously upsetting to anyone regardless of their age. But for this to be coming from peers, especially of it being no thought of their own, struck nerves in him like no other. A lot of the time he would just cry it out where he wasn't seen: out of both anger and frustration... and part genuine distress.

It's at a point where he learns its either easier to just bottle that shit up or fight about. So he does both. The bottling up is what he takes away from Yone, but the fighting-- that is his and his alone. Days where he comes back home covered in scrapes and cuts, bruises on his arms unmoving only to cry in a secluded spot behind their home were common place. And he does it for years, even into young adulthood. Something his brother does notice, but learns in the end is futile to try and turn him away from despite the amount of effort he gives to make Yasuo a better kid.

Not only does the fighting become a lot easier to handle than working through his own emotions. Now bottling it all up... eventually when that explodes in his face it manifests once again as crying. Its STILL something he does into adulthood. Be it he's angry, sad, or sometimes even overwhelmingly happy: he'll still cry about it but out of the view of prying eyes, or rather... try to. But that angry cry, the blind rage that comes from it-- god speed.

But yeah, emotionally stunted in a way that he needs to relearn how to work through his feelings. Runs in the family, once again.